Feeling myself split into deep dichotomies of self
Once in my teens my mother called me Jekyll and Hyde like my Father was (is? Who knows where he is), and I know she didn’t mean it to hurt but I think about the comparisons of myself and a mysterious, wandering Lothario
And there is truth there, in the violence of wanting my cheekbones to feel cradled by gentle, sighing moss while simultaneously relishing the way my boots strike the city pavement in a masochistic battle of who belongs to whom
I want to settle deep, strong home roots and also feel every foreign soil through my fingertips
I want to be understood, loved, seen, included by everyone I love and simultaneously desire to be alone
I wake up with a burning need to work, to create to accomplish and at the end of the day lament the time I didn’t spend watching that crack in the wall spider along in the shifting sun through my window
I walk through my house, deeply proud of the places I’ve created on my own and just as quickly embarrassed for the rooms yet untouched
I can torture myself about these polarities, endlessly. But what I never forget, completely, is that these complexities are also what I love the most. That in-between these longings I have such incredible agency to explore, stretch, learn, move and experience in ways I otherwise wouldn’t
I am complex. I am an irregular gem, without perfect shape or cut or clarity. I tend towards sharp edges concealing sweet, soft curves and I love this, too
When I can embrace instead of force correct how I feel, I fill up with the gift of realizing every single piece of me is exactly as it should be
Beautifully, intentionally so
1.72cts of champagne colored old mine cut cushions flank a fancy brown 1ct Hex diamond. And although I love these diamonds dearly, you’ll never guess what the extremely rare guest star is… as a hint it has been claimed to clear negative thoughts of the self and clear a pathway to the higher ✨
All together, this ring feels like a perfect reminder of how nature is perfect in her design, every time. Including in you.